I’m just having a lot of feels right now.
I’m rereading an old series I used to adore and it so wonderful. Every time i see a character I love it’s like meeting an old friend you haven’t talked to in a long time and all the wonderful memories you have of them come rushing back.
It’s making my heart hurt in the most exquisite way and I just want you to know: I love you, friends. Even if we don’t talk as often as we used to, you will always have a place in my heart and every time we do talk it’s like reopening a favorite book.
"At 19, I read a sentence that re-terraformed my head: “The level of matter in the universe has been constant since the Big Bang.”
In all the aeons we have lost nothing, we have gained nothing - not a speck, not a grain, not a breath. The universe is simply a sealed, twisting kaleidoscope that has reordered itself a trillion trillion trillion times over.
Each baby, then, is a unique collision - a cocktail, a remix - of all that has come before: made from molecules of Napoleon and stardust and comets and whale tooth; colloidal mercury and Cleopatra’s breath: and with the same darkness that is between the stars between, and inside, our own atoms.
When you know this, you suddenly see the crowded top deck of the bus, in the rain, as a miracle: this collection of people is by way of a starburst constellation. Families are bright, irregular-shaped nebulae. Finding a person you love is like galaxies colliding. We are all peculiar, unrepeatable, perambulating micro-universes - we have never been before and we will never be again. Oh God, the sheer exuberant, unlikely face of our existences. The honour of being alive. They will never be able to make you again. Don’t you dare waste a second of it thinking something better will happen when it ends. Don’t you dare."
Mako & Raleigh + text posts
"This girl who stands so quiet and grave at the mouth of hell. This girl who is all quietness and sanity and innocence. You wondered why I wanted her?"
On the seashore - George Elgar Hicks
Couple on a subway, New York City, 1946 (By Stanley Kubrick)
Vanitas (detail) by Leo Putz (1869-1940)
oil on canvas, 1896
"You don’t test a gentle person the way that you don’t steep tea for too long. Submerge me and I will imbue, and what was sweet will be bitter. I will be strong on your tongue and unpleasant to the taste, and you’ll regret drowning me in your guile.
My gentleness is not for your taking."