Pretty much sums up me as a person.
illustrated police news from 1898
Can someone teach me how to put:
All into one or a couple of cogent outfits? Because basically I want to present all of those things at once and it’s hard so basically I just stick to skinny jeans and tank tops.
Slowly coming to terms with certain aspects of my personality.
I am not maternal or a care-taker. I probably never will be. That saddens me. I’m not the person people come to when they want comfort or affection.
I’m fiercely protective, I’m a problem solver, and I will be the first person to get angry for you and grab my shield and sword if someone has wronged you, but when it comes to emotional support I’m lost for words. I’m not the person people want to cry into the shoulder of.
Can I just have beautiful armor to wear
and a personal banner
Just let me be a lady knight, okay?
I recently challenged myself to try and make my internalized list of values tangible.
I figured I might post it here for a lark. Essentially these are the traits I try to live by (try being the operative word). I’ve also added what each word means to me or what I think it encompasses since everyone interprets things differently.
(It would appear, after writing this all out that I’m aiming to be a Lady Knight or a Prince or something. That about sums it up actually…)
When the last sea is sailed, when the last shallow’s charted,
When the last field is reaped, and the last harvest stored,
When the last fire is out and the last guest departed,
Grant the last prayer that I shall pray, be good to me, O Lord.
And let me pass in a night at sea, a night of storm and thunder,
In the loud crying of the wind through sail and rope and spar,
Send me a ninth great peaceful wave to drown and roll me under
To the cold tunny-fish’s home where the drowned galleons are.
And in the dim green quiet place far out of sight and hearing,
Grant I may hear at whiles the wash and thresh of the sea-foam
About the fine keen bows of the stately clippers steering
Towards the lone northern star and the fair ports of home.